Life Changing

Sometimes I forget how much my life is about to change, but sometimes it hits me like a freight train: I am about to get married. Every aspect of my life is changing: I will be a wife, I am moving to a new city, I moving to a new house, I am changing churches, I am changing professions, I am leaving behind my family, I am leaving behind my friends, and I will be living with someone new. With the simple phrase, "I do," pretty much all of my life is changing. Never before have I felt such an urgency to rely on God. He is the only way I am going to seamlessly transition into this new stage of my life.

I was planning on ending my vegetarian lifestyle the past few months, but part of me wants to hold on to it. I have been a vegetarian for 9.5 years, and it has become such a part of me. In a time of all this change, I really don't want to change something else...I feel like I would be losing part of me. Stopping my vegetarian lifestyle would be easier for Phil & me: I could cook one meal for both of us, but I don't think I am ready to voluntarily change something else. I don't know...maybe I am.

As of tonight, I have 41 days left. Sometimes, I really don't know how I am going to do it. I still have my job (which I love, but it is life consuming!), a week of camp, Hadassah, and so much more. If you go to Souls Harbor, please take pity on me. If I seem distracted or disoriented, I probably am. Just pat me on the back and smile.

I am excited about all of my life changes, but I am wary too...I really don't know what life holds.

All Alone!

I can't believe that I didn't post at all during April! I got so busy, and I forgot to chronicle our times together. =( So here goes!

Thankfully I got to see Phil for Easter. Over the Easter break, Phil & I registered at Target and Bed, Bath, & Beyond. We had so much fun picking out our appliances and household items; it was one of my favorite parts of the engagement so far (right up there with wedding dress shopping). I realized why it was my favorite part: it was basically the only thing that I've been able to do with Phil. I've really enjoyed all of the wedding planning, but it stinks being without Phil. I wish we were assembling invitations together...I wish he knew what the wedding flowers looked like...I wish, I wish, I wish. But, thankfully, I get to share all of my experiences and the things I buy with Phil on Skype. Again, I say, thank GOD for video chatting!

Everybody that knows me knows that I am not usually an emotional person, but, oh my, this wedding is turning me into a crybaby! Everything is sentimental to me! I had my last dentist appointment with the best hygienist in the whole world last week. I just participated in my last Pastoral Celebration. I bought the last "from all three of us" Mothers' Day card that I will ever buy today. (Next year, Zac & Han are on their own. =)) Waterworks almost broke out in the middle of Target! I started buying bridesmaids' gifts today. I am so excited to me marrying the man of my dreams, but I still get sad!

I try to combat this sadness with work! I'm staying busy in Florida preparing for Touch the Future, and Phi's in St. Louis finishing up his las week of Gateway! I fly up to see him on Friday: my last flight to St. Louis! I cannot wait for us to be in the same time zone. (I really need to go to bed earlier!) He'll probably be out of town for a few weeks in June, but knowing that he is done with Gateway is so exciting. It makes our wedding seem so much closer.

As the wedding draws closer, I promise to blog more. I really want to share what is going on in our lives, so that when I leave the best church in the whole entire world, everybody can still know what is going on in the "New" Life of Phillip and Taylor.

Two quick notes: I call it life (not lives), because once we are married we are "one." Just had to clarify that for all the grammar freaks (like myself.) Also...notice all the hyperlinks? My first post with them. Yea for learning!

Easter Sunday

Phil registering (he got to use the gun the most)!

Taylor registering!